*Title in homage to Samantha Irby and her chapter titles (if you read this, I adore you) I’m in the middle of a massive fibromyalgia flare, which isn’t surprising given the amount of stress I’m under. At least I got to enjoy book club and some amazing Indian food before it hit; but let me…
Autism, Borderline Personality, and Generalized Anxiety All Walked Into a Bar
This should be our welcome mat. These past couple of weeks have been interesting (that’s me, reframing so that I’m not once again just complaining in my writings). I’ve come out of a low, and my anxiety has ramped up. 12, autistic, had been having a TOUGH time with emotional regulation, especially in the middle…
The Unbearable Weight of Existing
I've been kind of coasting along on autopilot, doing the things that I'm supposed to do...daily yoga, meditation, exercise, therapy, parenting, managing kids' issues, work, taking care of pets, bills, housework...thought I was doing all right but definitely not feeling like I'm functioning at 100%. On Wednesday while I went for a run I listened…
Green Flags
Ouch. I saw this on social media today and damn if it didn’t hit home. This is me. 100% I like to pretend that I’m low maintenance but nope, the truth is that I don’t believe that a partner would show up for me. (Especially with all the “no drama please” or “good vibes only”…
Too Tired to Title
There’s no light at the end of this tunnel, because this tunnel never ends. I’m an only parent, and I will always be their only parent. There’s no partner to tag in, when I’m totally depleted and exhausted in every sense of the word. No co-parent taking them every other weekend. No grandparents to take…
Welcome to My Brain
Is it depression caused by insomnia? Or insomnia and depression caused by a fibro flare? Is it a fibro flare caused by insomnia? Or depression? Or both? Ooooo, what if it’s an endo flare (my lower back really has been hurting)? Ugh, and is that a migraine coming on? Remember that awkward time with a…
Deconstructed Yoga Mom 