I hate asking my family for help, like HATE. I feel like “the baby” of the family who got “everything handed to her”, and (allegedly had it so much easier than my (male) siblings. Yes I realize that’s typical sibling shit to say, but piggybacked on an evangelical upbringing that essentially teaches that men are…
TLDR; Play Time is Vital and We All Deserve It
I took that quote to heart over the past week, and celebrated me, myself, and I for 9 days. I took off work, didn’t schedule any appointments, and made no commitments other than a pool party with friends and our kids. It was amazing. I got my nails and feet pampered, let an amazing massage…
My Tween Thinks I’m Cool
When I was 13/14 and swimsuit shopping with my mom, it was STRESSFUL. Being an evangelical, the restrictions were many and I couldn’t get the latest fashions because they were “immodest”. Yesterday I took B swimsuit shopping and it was FUN, for both of us. We were at Target, and they started talking to an…
Green Flags
Ouch. I saw this on social media today and damn if it didn’t hit home. This is me. 100% I like to pretend that I’m low maintenance but nope, the truth is that I don’t believe that a partner would show up for me. (Especially with all the “no drama please” or “good vibes only”…
A Release
Two years ago, at the beginning of The Pandemic, B was in the midst of an emotional breakdown that led to long term hospitalization. Not only were they being hospitalized, the facility was out of state, and because of COVID no in-person visits were allowed. A total of 7 months of not getting to hug…
Who Are You?
I should watch this again “Who are you?” That’s a question I ask myself quite a bit. Being an only parent means that so much of my identity is based around my kids. But I’m more than that, though I frequently forget it. “Who are you?” What even IS that question? How can it answer…
Missed Opportunity
Bisexual, hetero-romantic. That's the label that I settled on for myself, sometime last year; but then I thought maybe pansexual, heterosexual-romantic was more accurate. When it comes to sexual attraction, I'm all over the place but when it comes to relationships, I've only been with cisgender men. Lately I've wondered if the reason that I…
Death by A Thousand Cuts
I’ve wanted to write for over a week, but my brain was too much…my brain doesn’t stop ever, unless I’m meditating, doing yoga, or smoking weed. All the time that I’m living life, in the back of mind there’s a list constantly running: When is B’s next orthodontist appt? Need to email the school again…
Deconstructed Yoga Mom 