When I was 13/14 and swimsuit shopping with my mom, it was STRESSFUL. Being an evangelical, the restrictions were many and I couldn’t get the latest fashions because they were “immodest”. Yesterday I took B swimsuit shopping and it was FUN, for both of us. We were at Target, and they started talking to an…
Narcissists Gonna Narc…or something like that
It’s Mother’s Day weekend. I *just* made it through a round of layoffs at work. Kids’ mental states & my mental state are pretty stable. Things are okay-ish. The hearing in front of the judge re: the house is in 2 weeks, and I haven’t given into my abuser. So of course he emails me…
Another Depressing Post Because My Life Is A Dumpster Fire Right Now and I’m Barely Coping
*Title in homage to Samantha Irby and her chapter titles (if you read this, I adore you) I’m in the middle of a massive fibromyalgia flare, which isn’t surprising given the amount of stress I’m under. At least I got to enjoy book club and some amazing Indian food before it hit; but let me…
Autism, Borderline Personality, and Generalized Anxiety All Walked Into a Bar
This should be our welcome mat. These past couple of weeks have been interesting (that’s me, reframing so that I’m not once again just complaining in my writings). I’ve come out of a low, and my anxiety has ramped up. 12, autistic, had been having a TOUGH time with emotional regulation, especially in the middle…
A Release
Two years ago, at the beginning of The Pandemic, B was in the midst of an emotional breakdown that led to long term hospitalization. Not only were they being hospitalized, the facility was out of state, and because of COVID no in-person visits were allowed. A total of 7 months of not getting to hug…
Welcome to My Brain
Is it depression caused by insomnia? Or insomnia and depression caused by a fibro flare? Is it a fibro flare caused by insomnia? Or depression? Or both? Ooooo, what if it’s an endo flare (my lower back really has been hurting)? Ugh, and is that a migraine coming on? Remember that awkward time with a…
Deconstructed Yoga Mom 