I took that quote to heart over the past week, and celebrated me, myself, and I for 9 days. I took off work, didn’t schedule any appointments, and made no commitments other than a pool party with friends and our kids. It was amazing. I got my nails and feet pampered, let an amazing massage…
My Tween Thinks I’m Cool
When I was 13/14 and swimsuit shopping with my mom, it was STRESSFUL. Being an evangelical, the restrictions were many and I couldn’t get the latest fashions because they were “immodest”. Yesterday I took B swimsuit shopping and it was FUN, for both of us. We were at Target, and they started talking to an…
Forgiving Myself
I’ve been listening to a podcast lately called Something Was Wrong, about recovering from emotional abuse; and the first season’s relationship is so similar to my relationship and marriage. There were so many red flags, and so many times I ignored my intuition; I was codependent, and he made me that way. We met in…
Narcissists Gonna Narc…or something like that
It’s Mother’s Day weekend. I *just* made it through a round of layoffs at work. Kids’ mental states & my mental state are pretty stable. Things are okay-ish. The hearing in front of the judge re: the house is in 2 weeks, and I haven’t given into my abuser. So of course he emails me…
Another Depressing Post Because My Life Is A Dumpster Fire Right Now and I’m Barely Coping
*Title in homage to Samantha Irby and her chapter titles (if you read this, I adore you) I’m in the middle of a massive fibromyalgia flare, which isn’t surprising given the amount of stress I’m under. At least I got to enjoy book club and some amazing Indian food before it hit; but let me…
The Unbearable Weight of Existing
I've been kind of coasting along on autopilot, doing the things that I'm supposed to do...daily yoga, meditation, exercise, therapy, parenting, managing kids' issues, work, taking care of pets, bills, housework...thought I was doing all right but definitely not feeling like I'm functioning at 100%. On Wednesday while I went for a run I listened…
Deconstructed Yoga Mom 